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just a quick update, to let you all know i’m home and holding my own… so far. i feel pretty awful, mostly nauseated and wicked fatigued. mom has been over everyday to help and my sister arrives friday.
today, i’m waiting for my gp’s office to call us back so i can go in for labs. i keep getting up off the couch and lapping the dining room or kitchen, hoping to shake off some of this ickified funky feeling. no luck yet.
back to the couch now, because that’s just about all i can handle.
yesterday, nuggetdaddy and i dropped nugget off at grandad & grandmamie’s and then made the trek up to loudoun hospital where i was admitted and started my first day of eshap chemotherapy. i’ll be here at least until friday. my oncologist said he plans to keep me until he feels i’m well enough to go home.
nugget and nuggetdaddy will come up on wednesday or thursday and stay with friends in lansdowne until i’m ready to leave.
nugget is already missing her mama. she loved the video email, but cried for me tonight when we skyped. i had to call back after she got into her pajamas and sing her winnie-the-pooh songs while she jumped on the bed.
the nurses are great so far. the pharmacist = FAIL. it took foreverrrrrr to get my pain meds, and frankly they’re no better than what i take at home. one likes to imagine that at least while in the hospital, pain might be better managed. ahem.
moving on… it’s late and normal people are sleeping. the steroids coursing through my veins say to me, “hey, let’s party!” i think i’m going to turn on the tv and take some ativan shortly to see if i can trick my body into sleeping.
good night, all. we’re only $74 from goal #2! i really hope we can meet (& surpass) it while i’m in for this first dose of chemo!
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in response to reaching the $3600 goal:
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i’m deep into day two now. feeling nauseated and in pain at times. a wicked headache sprung up on me. my face is a lovely shade of red from the chemo. it happened last time, too.
i didn’t get much sleep last night (but that’s a story for another day’s post) so i’m going to try for a nap now. wish me luck, since it’s shift switch time, and nothing good ever happens then.
there’s been much discussion over the arrival of my pain meds. i’ve been asking for them since 3pm. it’s now 10:07pm. i’m in pain, and now super irritated. grrr…
as many of you know, my darling little (yet much taller than me) sister is getting married. she and her fiance have been together as long as nuggetdaddy and i. they were made for each other, wholly and completely, if two people ever were.
they just had their engagement photo shoot (so jealous) with the amazingly talented aaron thompson.
i caught a sneak peak on aaron’s blog and for just a few moments, everything was right with the world. i was moved to tears for the first time in weeks, not out of sorrow or heartbreak, but from simple happiness.
the photos are spectacular and truly capture a visual proof of their love. together they are magic. they are unstoppable. i know they will make this world a better place. they already do for me.
you can see the rest of the session at:
http://iheartas.com/blog/candice-jeff-enagement-session.html
yesterday afternoon, nugget and i picked wild blackberries in the backyard and counted the first of our bloody butcher tomatoes in the garden. this memory alone could get me through chemo.
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