"so it's not for me to say, because i change my mind from day to day, and when i look at you i only see bits of myself anyway."
i’m almost bald. i only shower every few days. as soon as the nausea ends the muscle pain starts. then comes the bone pain. after that subsides then it’s time to start all over again. i give nugget everything i have regardless of the overwhelming exhaustion.
this is the reality in our home. this is what my cancer looks like. this is how my daughter copes with my illness.
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July 20, 2009 at 7:00 pm
Jennifer
I don’t know how I ended up here, but I’m glad I did. This picture is so moving. That’s just beautiful. I can’t stop crying! I also read that you were diagnosed with cancer and BF up till a certain point, then were able to BF again after your chemo was over. That’s amazing. I bet your daughter thinks her mom is the best, and she should!
July 25, 2009 at 9:41 pm
bits of myself
thank you, jennifer. yes, we did resume nursing after my induction chemo was completed. now with my relapse we’ve had to stop again. hopfeully we’ll be able to nurse again after my salvage chemo and stem cell transplant.
February 28, 2009 at 6:23 pm
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August 26, 2008 at 7:01 pm
Catherine Toplansky
I have been following your blog for a week now. You gave me your web address last time we saw each other.
I knew you before your cancer but now have so much more of an apprecaition for your strength. And I had no idea how poetic you are. I love your blog and will continue to read it…….thanks for sharing.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Catherine
August 23, 2008 at 1:48 am
Nicole
I came across your blog and have to say this is one of the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen. I too am in tears. Hugs to both of you.
August 11, 2008 at 12:23 pm
Märia
I found your site through The Motherwear Breastfeeding Blog. I just wanted to say this picture is beautiful and I’ll pray for you.
August 11, 2008 at 11:09 am
Lori
This image is so heart-breakingly raw and beautiful. I write this through tears. I am thinking about you and your little one.
August 4, 2008 at 4:33 pm
Pearl
I have read few of your posts and I’m speechless of your energy and amazed how strong you are. I give you my support. Go, girl!
Sorry on my bad English.
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Greetings from Croatia.
July 30, 2008 at 11:40 pm
Bess
Amen, Lisa. I was thinking the same thing!!!
July 30, 2008 at 7:11 am
halfpintpixie
Thanks so much so sharing this, I feel so much for you and nugget x
July 29, 2008 at 11:09 pm
amanda
I wish I could change reality and alter this post so the only tags that remained were attachment parenting and nursing, but since I can’t I’ll honor the beauty of your spirit. I’ll nurse my own daughter tonight and be thankful that I can. That I am here and that she is in my arms.
July 29, 2008 at 11:00 pm
phdinparenting
Wow! What a touching picture. Thank you for sharing.
July 29, 2008 at 8:42 pm
Lisa
You are amazing.
And your breasts are huge! Seriously, how did someone so little, get boobs so big?
July 29, 2008 at 8:25 pm
Carrie
This picture captures soooooo much emotion and thought!
I know that you wish you could give your daughter more than your body can right now, and THAT hurts more than anything but,
I think that if she could tell you, she would say that she will love you through this with her whole heart, and any sacrafice or compensation she has to make will be worth it—anything to help make her mommy better!
My prayers are with you and your little one everyday!
Hugs and kisses for you!
July 29, 2008 at 12:21 pm
Maria
Absolutely beautiful!
July 29, 2008 at 12:17 pm
Jessica Quiles
Like others before me, This is a beautiful picture. She’s so lucky to have you as her mom!!
This too shall pass…. I will keep my thoughts and prayers going to give you strenght.
With love
Jessica Q.
July 29, 2008 at 9:15 am
Kate Wicker
This picture is so beautiful – so honest and so true. I’m crying as I type, trying to come up with the right words to express the emotions it evokes. For once, I’m at a loss for words, which doesn’t happen much to a writer/blabber mouth like myself.
I wonder if all those people who made less than charitable comments about an article I wrote about nursing at church at InsideCatholic would think twice if they saw this picture of a mother and her child.
And as for my occasional body angst, I am ashamed when I am reminded of my health and how blessed I truly am.
Thank you for stopping by my blog, leaving this link, and helping me to put things in perspective. You are a beautiful mother with a beautiful child and a beautiful bond. Rest assured, you will be in my prayers.
July 28, 2008 at 10:49 pm
Rose
Beautiful mama, beautiful baby, beautiful bond between you.
July 28, 2008 at 10:26 pm
Allison K
No words. xoxoxoxoxo
July 28, 2008 at 10:07 pm
Brigette
What an amazingly powerful picture ….nugget chose you to be her mommy for a very special reason. She will be your strength.
July 28, 2008 at 9:22 pm
Jocelyne
If I could, I’d take a few days of this for you so you could have a break, a few days of something a little closer to normal. If only exchanging such burdens was in the program. I don’t know how to say this any other way so here’s the cliche’….hang in there! hugs!
July 28, 2008 at 9:10 pm
Mitzi
God bless both you and nugget! what a touching picture…
July 28, 2008 at 6:29 pm
Heather
you are an inspiration. you are such a great mommy.
July 28, 2008 at 6:13 pm
Bess
But such a beautifully raw and touching picture. . . . .